Monday, 31 May 2010



I find that at often times, I am most inspired to write when I am exhausted and is nearly dawn, I have a cigarette between my lips (after having smoked countless) and the bitter taste of it overtakes my mouth and doesn't give me any pleasure, and yet I cannot stop smoking. It is at these moments that I feel most the need to write. It is after a long night of working all day, dealing with family problems, partying, being ditched by friends at a club while you are at a washroom, having to take the bus home for two hours at 3am, that life seems...painfully and beautifully adventurous and meaningful. I can see the sky getting brighter, the sun will wake up in a few hours and its presence, gives me a feeling full of life. I have the day off tomorrow or I should say, today since it's 5am. I am exhausted, upset, uninspired and my feet hurt incredibly so. I danced, I worked, I laughed, I sucked up to customers, I made money, I spent all the money made and here I am, in front of a computer, writing nonsense. What is life? Damn it, why do I feel the need to ask this question at 5 in the morning? 

How does the common person feel at such an hour, after all that was transcribed above? I am tired...but not sleepy. What is this state? How do you describe it or explain it? Bahhh, triviality is my constant companion in writing. I feel like I have nothing worthy to share...and yet, here I am sharing. What can you share?
Are you willing to share???

Give me a piece of your life....I want the exchange!

Here is another cigarette...

Friday, 14 May 2010


There are certain things that cannot go unnoticed. One is a gorgeous woman, the other, is an ugly woman. Both are two ends of the beauty spectrum and yet, something unites them, the fact that they are women, they are human, they are individuals with dreams, desires, imperfections and god knows what else. In most cases, a woman will be in between of those two ends, but there are times when one can exceed the limit of the edges based on their behaviour. A true ugly woman is one who does not necessarily have an ugly face, but definitely an ugly personality. And a true beautiful woman is one who does not necessarily have a beautiful face, but a great personality. In this world, you can pass by with a smile, with jokes, kindness and wits if you let them be your primary factors of life. If you lack any of the above, make sure you take care of that pretty face or you are doomed. If you are lucky to have both, then....you are one freak of nature.


Don't let superficiality rule your life. Let those countless beauty magazines say whatever they want, you pay attention to the magnificent things that move you, focus on your goodness and you will be happy, content, and beautiful in every way.


Those are my two cents of the day....

Monday, 26 April 2010

Kiss me out of the bearded barley
Nightly, beside the green, green grass
Swing, swing, swing the spinning step
You wear those shoes and I will wear that dress.

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me

Kiss me down by the broken tree house
Swing me upon its hanging tire
Bring, bring, bring your flowered hat
We'll take the trail marked on your father's map







Friday, 16 April 2010

The Great Gatsby

I found in my notebook, written in a hurried, ugly handwriting, pieces from the book The Great Gatsby. I read them and found it interesting that I had thought them important, meaningful enough to write them down and see how applicable they are to my life right now. Life is funny....you can find it in books, in pictures, everywhere...you belong everywhere!


"If personality is an unbroken series of successful gestures, then there was something gorgeous about him, some heightened sensitivity to the promises of life, as if he were related to one of those intricate machines that register earthquakes ten thousand miles away." p. 2

"Yet high over the city our life of yellow windows must have contributed their share of human secrecy to the causal watcher in the darkening streets, and I was him too, looking up and wondering. I was within and without, simultaneously enchanted and repelled by the inexhaustible variety of life." p.44

"He smiled understandingly, - much more than understandingly. It was one of those rare smiles with a quality of eternal reassurance in it, that you may come across four or five times in life. It faced - or seemed to face - the whole external world for an instant, and then concentrated on you with an irresistible prejudice in your favor. It understood you just so far as you wanted to be understood, believed in you as you would like to believe in yourself and assured you that it had precisely the impression of you that at your best, you hoped to convey. Precisely at that point it vanished - and I was looking at an elegant young rough-neck, a year or two over thirty, whose elaborate formality of speech just missed being absurd." p.53-54, this was the first description of gatsby.

"And I like large parties. They're so intimate. At small parties, there isn't any privacy". Jordan Baker says to Nick.

"At the enchanted metropolitan twilight I felt a haunting loneliness sometimes, and felt it in others - poor young clerks who loitered in front of windows waiting until it was time for a solitary restaurant dinner - young clerks in the dusk, wasting the most poignant moments of night and life." p.60

"Americans, while occasionally willing to be serfs, have always been obstinate about being peasantry." p.84

"No amount of fire or freshness can challenge what a man will store up in his ghostly heart."p.90

"Gatsby believed in the green light, the orgastic future that year by year recedes before us. It eluded us then, but that's no matter - tomorrow we will run faster, stretch out our arms farther...And one fine morning - So we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past." End

Bits and pieces...



"Curly hair, dark skin,
sweet smile,
eyes that happiness bring.

You wear your white shirt,
you put your shoes on,
you walk and tread on and on,
in life and in road,
you are always fierce, in each one."

"Let the flowers bloom
the wind blow,
the clouds move and the sorrow go.
Let everything pass you by,
let your soul breathe,
let your mind relax,
let your world heal."

Thursday, 25 March 2010


I had a wonderful dinner at The Keg tonight. I had a t-bone steak accompanied by so-so salad, great Bogle Zinfandel wine and the best company a girl can want, a friend who makes me feel wonderful and loved. 

Lately, I have been absent, I know. But forgive me, inexistent readers, I have been too busy living. I have been busy working 12 hrs everyday, partying, working, partying, working...you get the drift. I have been good, but I have been bad more. I have started living my own story of Anais Nin, a complicated woman of the 1930s who doesn't know what she wants so she tries everything and gets scarred by it. This is me, the quintessential adventurer of feelings and things and people. I love experiencing everything...but it causes trouble.

And I end up bruised, but full of beautiful markings left by the experiences...

Wednesday, 10 March 2010



"Don't you love storms?" - she asked. "Aren't they the most amazing, beautiful thing you can witness? So full of power, intensity, fear, passion....they are like love!"

"They are like you..." - he answered.

Don't you love storms, dear inexistent readers? Don't you love in all its power, intensity, fear, passion and disillusionment?

Don't you love?